stolen moments

I relish the precious moments that are all mine. They’re so few and far between these days. Ben’s left for work, and C is still snoozing, so I’m making the most of the time by sitting on our exercise bike and sipping tea. In reality, I’d love to be at the gym on an elliptical machine, but given C’s previous distaste for the gym daycare, the fact that it costs $4 and that it requires dressing and driving to get there, here I am at home.

Case in point, C woke up while I was mid-draft, and I had to put this post on hold. I’m continuing now about 4 hours later, at naptime. I’ve switched to caffeinated tea, as a nap sounds really enticing, but I’d like to finish my exercise routine while C naps so it’s out of the way. There’s no way I could do my stretching routine right now… I’m pretty sure is fall asleep on the floor mid stretch. So, caffeine saves the day yet again.

What was the point? I’ve lost my train of thought… Ah, yes, the point was, I seldom find myself with time to call my own these days, so I try to enjoy the time that I do get. When I was working, I’d spend my days behind a computer, interacting with co-workers as needed, but on my own for the most part. The momentary down time in between tasks was often enough to help me feel recharged. And when it wasn’t enough, I had the option of a lunch in solitude doing whatever my heart desired. Sometimes shopping, sometimes a pedicure, sometimes a nap in the car (that was a favorite while I was pregnant!). I do get those moments now, but they’re not nearly as “free” as they used to be, as they’re usually sandwiched around sleep schedules. I can do whatever my heart desires within the confines of my own home, which sounded fantastic when I was working 60 hours a week, but the novelty has worn off a bit. Lately, I opt for exercise or a nap. I’m not complaining… life is definitely more enjoyable now than it was while working full time, it’s just one of those observations of things you don’t realize you’ll miss until they’re gone. Add to that list the feeling of accomplishment you get when completing an intense project, or the way it feels to get a great review, and you have me missing work a bit.

This nostalgia is actually well timed, as we’re planning to start C in a preschool program a few days a week next year, and it will give me time to find for some low stress work. We’re looking at this primarily for the benefit of having C socialize with other kids and for her to get ok with the idea that I’m not going to be there every day. It’s early for that, yes, but I’m at the point where I welcome a change and a bit of a break. It will be great for C to be challenged in ways I haven’t thought of, and to make a few new friends on her own.

So, that’s the plan. After our trip to Hawaii, C will be joining a preschool program and I’ll be updating my resume. Wish us luck!


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Mom to "C", wife to Ben. I'm a part-time blogger, cook, organizer, seamstress, house cleaner, taxi, nurse (the mom kind), accountant... I could go on, but really... it's all in the blog. Read away!

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