The next chapter

Next week marks the beginning of a new chapter in life for me – I’m leaving my job and staying home to spend more time with C. For now, we’re going to see how the summer goes and figure out the rest of the plan as it unfolds.

I’m excited to see what the summer will bring us. I’m looking forward to swim lessons for C, joining a mom’s group and spending time with family. Ben & I have discussed weekend trips we can take as a family and possible adventures for the summer.

Along with the excitement comes a sense of anxiety and apprehension about what this next step means in the grand scheme of things. I’ve never envisioned leaving the professional world to stay home – I always expected I would work at least part time after having a child. But, like many have said before, this really isn’t something you can plan for or will know until you’re actually faced with making a decision. I feel fortunate that things seem to be working in our favor so that I am able to do this.

I look forward to getting C back on a schedule at home. We had a nice little routine going before she went off to daycare. She would take naps easily – going to sleep with very little fussing. And we were seeing improvement in her night time routine, too. One thing that will be a relief for her is no more bottles. Unfortunately, our kiddo is very picky about her method of feeding. We’ve struggled with getting her to take a bottle. We tried different brands, nipples and flow speeds to no avail. She hated them all. Through trial and error, we finally found that she tolerates the standard gerber bottles with fast flow nipples. Even with this new discovery, she still doesn’t take a bottle until she’s starving, she will only take it happily from one person at daycare, and even then, she only drinks 2 – 3 oz at a time. So I’ve been trying to go in at lunch to nurse her so she gets at least one full meal during the day, otherwise she’s up all night trying to make up for the feedings she missed during the day. I’m looking forward to no longer having that problem, although I know it means she will probably grow to dislike the bottle even more as she isn’t drinking from it daily. So, it means a few more months before we can take any romantic trips without her, but it’s worth it to me for a happy baby.

Not having income will also be weird for me. I’ve worked since I was 15 years old – and while it didn’t always cover all of my living expenses, it was a nice little extra pocket money that I could do with as I pleased. Without an income, I feel like I need to scrutinize my expenses and justify every purchase. Not that any sort of scrutiny is being imposed on me – I just feel it’s the right thing to do when money is tight and only coming in from one source. More meals at home, utilizing our food better, shutting off lights and finding low budget adventures for the family. It’s a whole new challenge for me!

In my final days at work, I find it hard to concentrate on the task at hand. My mind wanders as I think of new and exciting projects I can work on at home. Planting a garden, organizing the office, cooking up new & creative meals to name a few. I’m excited to step up to the challenge and see what these next few months bring me. Wish me luck!


2 Responses to “The next chapter”

  1. 1 Laura June 4, 2010 at 6:16 PM

    Welcome to the club! It really is a fun job. I will say that for me, the HARDEST part was adjusting to not being a “professional” any longer. I had a time when it was particularly hard when I all of a sudden felt like I had just fallen off the earth… nobody besides my family needed me. Granted, I did move to a very small town miles away from anyone we knew at the same time, so it may not fair to say that these are typical symptoms. I’ve come to my senses pretty much now, and LOVE what I do. Don’t count on getting much done with house cleaning… I don’t know how it happens, but I never seem to have the time to clean. Oh well, a dirty house is a sign of happy children!

  2. 2 Ingrid June 17, 2010 at 4:20 PM

    My eldest never learned to take a bottle. Eventually we just gave up and moved her to a cup. Screw those bottles!
    Congratulations on staying home. It is hard, but not something you will ever regret. I wouldn’t do it any other way for our little family. I love it and feel super lucky to get to do it.

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Mom to "C", wife to Ben. I'm a part-time blogger, cook, organizer, seamstress, house cleaner, taxi, nurse (the mom kind), accountant... I could go on, but really... it's all in the blog. Read away!

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